Songs and thoughts

---

Heres a thought about something i see alot,, but really dislike its a stupid thing that happens well its not that its all that stupid It all depends on what place you have in the situation people get hurt and thats really not cool i know i've done it,, i think everyone has its like you spend all this time getting close to someone like years, and you're like super super close,, and then he meets a girl,, or she meets a girl,, and all the sudden you don't matter anymore i mean you do but its totally not the same.. your hours turn into minutes and your conversations to hi's and whats up. and the closeness disinegrates like right in your face and i know i've done it too,, what a jerk i am... all those times that he called,, and was to busy,, with "Her" Something that didn't even last,, something i had to cry over rather than laugh away the hours with my best of friends Some things are just too important,, especially people.. we don't even realize it either,, Its just like kicking someone in the stomach,, when you only have time for you and your signifigant other Insignifigant is more like it....and don't get me wrong I'm all for being in love,, But don't neglect those who have put soo much into you in the past,, Like the bible says,, do unto others as you would have them do to you girlfriends and boyfriends will come and go,, But brothers,sisters, parents, and best friends last forever,,, Just take one minute and thing about your time and where its invested Let people know you appreciate them,, and if you have too,, apologize we all get wrapped up in our own little worlds,, so lets not stay there an alienate ourselves lets patch the gaps we've so blindly created and Never forget what relationships are truely important... HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TORN????? i feel like i'm slipping away the love i had still remains but i feel it deteriorating,, and i don't know what to do i mean you can only fight for soo long and believe me i've fought and its seem like to no avail,, what will God bring, he knows all things he has me in his hands and all things work to good for those who love him so i will try,, i will keep my head up i just have to trust that he is in control but this feel inside me what is it it feels as if my heart is being torn not out of my chest like in heartbreak, but in half like wanting two things at once soo bad how could i possibly know what to do how could i ever make it through if i didn't have jesus my life would end, as much as nothing makes sense,, when i think of your love for me that makes sense, that will keep me alive I thank you lord, my reason for living.. HAVE YOU EVER SEEN IT????? A lot of times the way we act is wicked stupid, I don’t know if its everywhere, or just everywhere I look I guess it could be simply labeled at insecurity, But its like we all have these super big egos or something But its not really that, its just more like we are scared Scared of possibilities, Scared of how you feel Scared of yourself Its like we have this preconceived notion that everyone Is mean, no matter how bad we really want to talk to a certain person, We feel like we should hide how we really feel,, \ Like that’s gonna make stuff better right? And I’m just wondering why? Or how bout this one, you think someone is really really cool So you’re looking at them,, and then suddenly they glance over at you We get all freaked out,, flustered, look down or away,, say something dumb,, I think we’ve all seen it happen or done it ourselves.. Its jus weird to think about because in reality we are looking for the same thing,, someone… But it seems like we automatically assume that…… I dunno what we automatically assume, But I know that its dumb.. It would soo interest me if just for one day everything was the opposite, I mean if we could walk around with this “Fear” or awkwardness with the opposite sex. Just to see people not be afraid, cuz in reality, We’re being scared of being nice to someone We’re more content to just be “snobs” or at least act like one When we’re dying inside to to talk to him or her I think people are a lot nice than we perceive them to be Lifes to short to be snobby and stupid,, Be Nice, Talk, Smile, Make someone feel special…..
!st of all hows it soo easy for you to be soo perfect when i can barely keep my head above the water line I'm slipping slowly But I'm trying soo hard And i'm falling down this hill that we call life I can't make it on my own So god i'm calling out please take control of all i have its you i need nothing else can fill me Please take control I'm finally learning and now i'm moving forward I try my best to always keep my eyes on you but i still have problems I still fall away I'm so thankful you still call me your son I can't make it on my own so God i'm calling out please take control of all i have Its you i need, nothing else can fill me Please take control
The Pain Can we quit with all this fake stuff, you smile when you see me but you frown as i turn around you don't think i see it but i do i see right through you is it me,, whats wrong with you when did you change and why would you ever when i never see what i saw before i hope you can forget me Cuz i'm heading out the door this is what you wanted i hope you're finally happy so short, unsweet, not wanted
Stupid Boy I miss you more than I ever did before, The things I planned aren’t working out I always thought I could get around, But it seems right now that you is all I want I’m sitting staring wondering If you would ever come back to me I know I’ve let you down Put you throught the hardest times you’ve ever faced But I’m ready to replace that hurt with joy Cuz I wanna be your boy I wanna be your man Promise I’ll give anything to hold you again My time my strength, my love Whatever you want you’ve got Cuz its tearing me apart (inside) And I don’t wanna be alone I’m sick of this looking hoping wanting needing My mind is stressed and my hearts uneasy Trying to find someone who can be you to me But I know this will never be Cuz you’re stuck in my heart and I don’t wanna be apart I can’t forget you and what you mean to me I can’t forget how you smiled and what you said to me I can’t forget all those times I felt sooo in love I can’t forget you cuz you’re MY angel
Before times out
While i can still speak While i can still breath While the sun still rises and falls While i can still make sense of it all This could be my last week Could this be my last day If this is my last minute Its totally worth it If once more you hear me say While the clock still turns While the sun still burns While the stars still fill up the sky at night While you're still running through my mind And if i could never say And if i never told you I couldn't live with myself knowing you were with someone else So i'm gonna say what i say Girl i love you and I Need you, in my life Girl i can't stop thinkin about you and i'm going crazy,, going crazy Girl i love you and I need you, In my life, and Girl i'm not complete with you, I can't stop thinkin about you,, and i'm going crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy